Even though this is a deep, maybe philosophical question, I will try and give a more technical description of myself.
I am a student in Turkey, rolled in Bogazici University's Maths Department. I indeed enrolled here with passion of being a mathematician and accomplishing great things as an Academician. But as it seems life had different plans for me, or even more simply, I just didn't know myself very well back then. At the very first year university, I noticed I was not made for academy, and started a search for different paths to live my life in. But I was not completely away from maths, I still believed that I could make something out of it that I would love. It did not have to be academy, I had numerous options and I knew it. In fact, as I am 3rd grade right now, while I write those letters, my search is still very much incomplete, maybe even at its beginning. I somehow know that it will stay so for a long time in some manner. But that does not scare me or make me unsure any more. I suppose I've learnt to live along the wind of life pretty quick.
What happened in my head until now is a broad topic, in which I might talk and got nowhere for literal hours. But, what will happen, or I wish to be so, in the following years? I should state the fact that even though I am not that enthusiastic about complex analysis or triple integrals in Euclidean calculus, I am still into numbers and expressing everyday problems with them. At that point, with this note taken, I would like to express my personality a little so that we can have a better understanding I want what, and why.
Ever since my childhood, I never wanted to be the famous, the important, the most precious leader. I was happy as a normal guy, a standard simple brick where it is essential so that the wall, the thing bigger than itself would be complete. Thus, I was the perfect team member. Arising myself alone was not precious for me. I have seen the real success as being such a team member, such a mate that my whole team would rise with me. This aspect of my personality was open to be observed while I, as a child, was playing online games. Usually in team-work based online games there would be a class, usually named "support", that exist only for the good of the rest of the team. And most of the time those classes would not be popular. I was the "support" guy. It was the feeling of being a part of something bigger than you that was making me happy and successful. I, after years, am still somehow the same. I crave to be an important, valued, yet still simple part of something big. Like that basic gear in a big machine, where if that little gear is gone, the machine would lose its efficiency.
Hence, I am looking for a team that is helping other departments of the company work better. A team where I could easily fit in and work in harmony.
I am a team player, I am an enthusiast, I am a man full of curiosity yet hesitation.
I am Can Kervan.
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